" I no longer care one way or the other. "
I'm sorry to hear that. It was never my intention , nor imho that of the many of us who have responded to your ideas/questions..to lead you towards disillusionment.
Speaking for my self, the opposite ,has allwys been my motivation.
May you find that which your soul seeks
Warwick
" I have always found that the main obstacle to free
association on these boards is the broad
misconception that what we do not know is more
significant than what we do know."
Warwick L Nixon, March 8, 2019